I Am Only One
Memories fade into the silence
Haunting me tonight
With hope's last breath I take this moment in
It will be the last
Then morning breaks
And sunlight takes the pain away
Ever after never came
And I'm still waiting
For a life that never was
And all the dreams I lay to rest
Are ghosts that keep me
After all that I've become
I am only one
I am only one
I close my eyes and bleed this empty heart
Of all that longs to die
When faces lie and love will falter
I'm left with only time
And time will break
The dreams that take the pain away
Ever after never came
And I'm still waiting
For a love I'll never have
And all the dreams I lay to rest
Are ghosts that keep me
After all that I've become
I am only one
I am only one
I'm on my own here
And no one's left to be the hero of
This fairy tale gone wrong
As night will fall
My heart will die alone
Ever after never came
And I'm still waiting
For my heart to beat again
And all the dreams I've laid to rest
Are ghosts that keep me
After all that I've become
I am only one
I am only one
I am only one
September 20th
Date: 2019-06-05 05:56 am (UTC)I do not know what to make of this Genessia as a whole. I was fortunate enough to meet a woman by the name of Ayame Sasaki who lead me to a Japanese inn and offered to pay for my stay while I adjust to everything. Apparently I am not the first person to come from what most here would consider an early timeline. The advancements in technology are startling to say the least. There are horseless carriages called “automobiles”, I just foolishly admit I mistook one as an armored beast at first having nothing to compare it to. Still, even with such marvels to see what stands out to me is water running inside buildings and the sanitation it provides. There are flameless lights as well, run by “electricity”. It is apparently used for much more than that, but I cannot think of much more that is more useful than light. Even something so simple as the utensil I am currently using to write this entry is impressive. A “ball point pen”. It lacks the character and fluidity of a brush, but the ink is contained, will not dry out and will last for days if not weeks. I feel like a moronic child trying to move about with so many things I do not understand or do not inherently know like so many others here.
It would also seem that the powers in control of this place regularly pull people from the same worlds together, but as such I have seen no signs of anyone else—though of course I would only know if we were acquainted. I have seen no sign of my husband or more importantly the Yaminobu or the Ishin Shishi. For the time being it seems that I am alone.