Himura Tomoe (![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
willing_sheath) wrote2012-08-12 05:21 pm
willing_sheath) wrote2012-08-12 05:21 pm
IC INBOX
[A standard pre-recorded message starts:]
Your call has been forwarded to an automatic voice message system. [There are a few long moments of dead silence before someone draws a breath speaks in a stiff, uncomfortable tone:] Himura Tomoe... [and another long few seconds of silence where she apparently didn't realize how to stop the recording.] is not available. At the tone, please record your message. When you have finished recording, you may hang up or press one for more options. To leave a callback number, press five.
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Your call has been forwarded to an automatic voice message system. [There are a few long moments of dead silence before someone draws a breath speaks in a stiff, uncomfortable tone:] Himura Tomoe... [and another long few seconds of silence where she apparently didn't realize how to stop the recording.] is not available. At the tone, please record your message. When you have finished recording, you may hang up or press one for more options. To leave a callback number, press five.
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...I don't. I'm sorry, but I don't. Oh my goodness, I don't know what to do.
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If it is a matter of funds I can easily work more hours or likely get help from Tinya or Vash. If he pushes the issue... do you think you would feel safe enough working alongside me? It is nothing you don't already do everyday--simple custodial work. But if not, that is still alright.
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You shouldn't have to work more hours! You work hard enough! And Vash is a friend, but I'd feel uncomfortable asking him for assistance. He likely has his own affairs to keep in order. And I don't...know. I've never cleaned for someone other than family before.
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It would be less Vash... and more his brother. I am fairly sure... that Knives would be willing to help me... at this point... [and she wonders, not for the first time, if she should tell Constance of what happened to her... and wonders more if it would really make a difference.] In desperation I was considering asking him for a contract... but it is something I would look to as an absolute last resort. [She wasn't sure how Knives would take that. Vash would likely be furious with her even thinking of it, considering she was supposed to avoid him at all costs... when she was human. But Constance was where she paused. She highly doubted that Knives would be willing to take on what he would probably consider her pet human. And the entire point was to have the same Dominant...]
Ah, I assure you, it is the same as cleaning anything. We're simply paid to do it.
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I suppose that's not...terrible?
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It really isn't.
(cw: suicidal ideation)
[a part of her longs for that, for an end to pain]
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But no... I don't think he would kill you. Not without some extreme outside influence. He is trying to change from what he was in their world, and I think he has made progress to that end--but that doesn't make him a nice person. He can be callous and uncaring, even purposefully hurtful. It is best for you to avoid him. I doubt you will ever even see him, but so you are aware, he looks exactly like Vash but his hair is black and cut shorter.
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I suppose...that everyone deserves the chance to change their ways for the better. But [she flashes back to cousin Charles, sweet words covering a bitter heart] very few people are nice people. I'll do my best to avoid him. It's--there are very many people here. It shouldn't be difficult.
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I do not think you will need to try very hard. He avoids people in general.
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Oh. That's good? For--for both him and for other people? Are you safe with him? I don't want you to be unsafe.
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[One day she may test out being alone with Knives, but that day is a long way off at this point.]
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[but she imagines she'd feel like a cornered mouse were she anywhere near his brother]
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[Oh god, Knives would eat her alive...]
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[because kind is what she always fell back on, kind to her Merricat, her Uncle Julian and.....cousin Charles. but cousin Charles had to die, he'd attacked her and he had to die. her Merricat was simply the vessel of his destruction]
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[Just ignore the fact that she does the same goddamn thing, just in a much more subtle way...]
His pacifism... He lets himself be injured so badly rather than striking out against his enemies...
...
Too kind...
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[...also guilty as charged. she'd always been so busy taking care of Uncle Julian and her Merricat, she'd barely let herself imagine a life of her own]
Not even to defend himself?
[she sighs and looks down]
Yes.
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It depends on the situation... if he thinks letting himself be beaten bloody is the simplest solution then he will... even if he could avoid it...
[Christ... just look at that public punishment...]
(cw: sexual assault)
But--he mustn't! He's so kind, he doesn't deserve such ill-treatment. Better it were me instead. [and she remembers the laughter, the taunts, the feel of the men's hands on her body as they passed her back and forth. but better her than her Merricat]
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Better it were no one... [she corrects] He's too kind... and I wish there were more people like him...
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Yes. Yes. No one would be better. [but she's too used to suffering on behalf of others] He is...entirely kind. I've never known someone who was entirely kind.