IC Journal

[willing_sheath]

CANON TIMELINE

September 1845--Born
(June 1849--Kenshin born)
May 1854--Enishi is born, mother dies, Tomoe age 8/9
Spring 1862--betrothed to Kiysatto Akira, marriage set for Spring 1863, Tomoe age 16/17, Enishi age 6/7
Fall 1862--Kiyosatto joins Mimawari-gumi, wedding delayed to Spring 1864, Tomoe age 17, Enishi age 7
(Early 1863--Kenshin quarrels with Hiko and leaves, joins Kiheitai and is taken to Kyoto with Katsura Kogoro, Kenshin age 13/14)

1864
Early March--Kiyosatto is killed in Kyoto
April 4th--news of Kiyosatto's death arrives from Kyoto
Mid-April--Tomoe runs away to Kyoto
Late April--Tomoe arrives in Kyoto and is found by the Yaminobu
Early May--Meets Kenshin and is brought to the Kohagiya
Mid-May--discussion of "madness" with Katsura Kogoro
Late May--window incident, "now a sheath to hold back your madness"
June 5th--Ikedaya Affair
July 18th--Kinmon Incident
Late July--Kenshin and Tomoe are married and go into hiding outside Otsu, Tomoe age 18, Kenshin age 15
Late December--Enishi arrives in Otsu
December 31st--Tomoe dies, Tomoe age 19, Kenshin age 15, Enishi age 10

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[no date]

[willing_sheath]

[Her handwriting is disjointed, neither her meticulous calligraphy nor the rushed mess her final entries had been. The ink is smeared in places where tears fell to the pages as she was writing]

I died.



I cannot bring myself to even think on this place and what it is in the face of that impossible fact. When the memories first came back to me I thought I had to be mistaken. How could I have died when I stand here breathing? When I can feel my heart beating in my chest? And yet it was so clear... the bite of his sword... the cold creeping into my limbs... and the look on his face... But the scar is there... so there is no question that it happened. No way I could have survived it... not when it runs all the way down both my front and my back... I'm like a child's plaything... ripped apart and stitched back together again...



How was I so stupid?

"Why go looking for a weakness that may not exist... when it's far easier to create one"

I tried to stop it... and all I did was set it in motion... and in the end...

Dear god, what have I done to him...? How selfish am I...? That I was happy when I died... happy that I saved him... But what fate have I doomed him to? Assuming he survives his injuries... The same one I was living? But at least with Kiyosato... I hadn't held the blade myself. "This is the way it should be, so please don't cry"...

"Don't cry"...

How could I say such words to a man who had just killed his wife with his own hands...? After going through god knows what to save her...?

"Don't cry"...



Dear god... I'm a monster...

Re: [no date]

[girlofsteele]

[so she's a little confused as to the exact play of events, but...Tomoe was dead? and her husband killed her? and that's how they'd wanted it all along?]