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Himura Tomoe
I Am Only One
Memories fade into the silence
Haunting me tonight
With hope's last breath I take this moment in
It will be the last
Then morning breaks
And sunlight takes the pain away
Ever after never came
And I'm still waiting
For a life that never was
And all the dreams I lay to rest
Are ghosts that keep me
After all that I've become
I am only one
I am only one
I close my eyes and bleed this empty heart
Of all that longs to die
When faces lie and love will falter
I'm left with only time
And time will break
The dreams that take the pain away
Ever after never came
And I'm still waiting
For a love I'll never have
And all the dreams I lay to rest
Are ghosts that keep me
After all that I've become
I am only one
I am only one
I'm on my own here
And no one's left to be the hero of
This fairy tale gone wrong
As night will fall
My heart will die alone
Ever after never came
And I'm still waiting
For my heart to beat again
And all the dreams I've laid to rest
Are ghosts that keep me
After all that I've become
I am only one
I am only one
I am only one
Spring 1862
Date: 2020-06-20 02:38 am (UTC)I never thought that I could feel the joy that I do now at my betrothal, and I can only imagine that this is Father's gift to me after so many years struggling to raise Enishi by myself. I do not know the last time I have felt this degree of happiness. I have been betrothed to Kiyosatto Akira-sama. I never once considered that we might be matched. I had never dared to hope when there are so many other matches that would benefit the Yukishiro family more. Surely Father knows how deeply I care for him. i never thought I would look to marriage with anything other than trepidation, but I find myself elated. Kiyosatto-sama was allowed to tell me himself, and it is just another mark of his character that he asked me to marry him rather than simply telling me of the match. All I could do was stare at him in awe, my joy and surprise were so great that they wiped my mind clean of any words I wished to say. He offered me a delicate and simple kanzashi and the only response I could give was to take it and bow. Even now, when I try to speak my words catch in my throat. Why it is like this I will never know. This is the only place my words can flow freely.
We will be married next spring. I am elated.