[There are a number of false starts that seem almost garbled in comparison to here usual neat handwriting showing that her hand is shaking badly--though the most notable thing is the fact that all writing following the last entry is clearly written with a ballpoint pen rather than brush and ink.]
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Why am I
How can
I can't
My god what have I done...?
How is any of this possible...?
I just
It's too much
It's all too much...