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willing_sheath) wrote2012-08-12 05:21 pm
willing_sheath) wrote2012-08-12 05:21 pm
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[A standard pre-recorded message starts:]
Your call has been forwarded to an automatic voice message system. [There are a few long moments of dead silence before someone draws a breath speaks in a stiff, uncomfortable tone:] Himura Tomoe... [and another long few seconds of silence where she apparently didn't realize how to stop the recording.] is not available. At the tone, please record your message. When you have finished recording, you may hang up or press one for more options. To leave a callback number, press five.
[BEEP]
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Your call has been forwarded to an automatic voice message system. [There are a few long moments of dead silence before someone draws a breath speaks in a stiff, uncomfortable tone:] Himura Tomoe... [and another long few seconds of silence where she apparently didn't realize how to stop the recording.] is not available. At the tone, please record your message. When you have finished recording, you may hang up or press one for more options. To leave a callback number, press five.
[BEEP]
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[She doesn't return the embrace, but she doesn't push him away either. Not yet. When she speaks her voice is small and quavering]
I told you once... that you don't just stop loving someone... Love... doesn't work that way... [She closes her eyes tight, sending the last few tears cascading down her cheeks.] But I need you to leave now, Souji...
[She doesn't even realize what she's said.]
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in a low voice — ]
You still love me... don't you, Tomoe-san? [ when she says his first name, another tear can't hold itself any longer. ] ... After many things I've done to you... why would you still love a man like me? You already apologized for taking away the woman I knew. What's there to forgive on my side? You should forgive me...
[ and she's asking him to leave. seems fair. ]
I want Constance. She has everything I've desired in a woman... [ if she were like sei, gods, she would be 100+ % perfect! ] ... I'll make her happy. My life is hers to do as she likes.
... I'm sorry I cannot give you what you seek.
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[The old resentment creeps forward as he speaks of Constance again, the darker thoughts of being replaced by a better version still there. They always would be as well.]
[She swallows thickly, finally speaking to his last statement.]
So am I...
[She lifts her hands, not to return the embrace but to find their way between them, pushing lightly against his chest.]
Please... go now...
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to him, no one's a better version of someone else. what he feels for sei and constance is different, only constance achieved the impossible by making him fall for her greatly and want to marry. however, what he could see was how the spitefulness consumed this woman's heart, and constance's heart isn't tarnished with mean thoughts. as much as souji cares for tomoe, such mean thoughts he discerned in her and how he must have loved a different tomoe are the reasons why anything else can't happen.
it's not wise, it's unhealthy, it's unfair. and yet, he can't help not caring, not worrying, not giving her some of that love that was there once like this. ]
It's alright, Tomoe-san...
[ and of course, he doesn't resist as she breaks the contact between them, his expression reflects the grief and shame of the proposition. with a step behind and eyes closed, he lowers his head in a bow and turns to leave, maybe expecting she will stop him from going, but he rather go to constance if asked to stay.
this was probably a mistake. ]
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