I know.

[She keeps her eyes closed and doesn't look at him. This is exactly what she was expecting.]

If I had my way I never would have spoken of it... because I know all of that... The only reason I am now... is because I'm backed into a corner...

[Her tears are escaping freely now, even if her eyes remain closed and she lets out a quiet self-deprecating laugh.]

I am very good... at destroying my own happiness...