( the last few days had been a conundrum, trying to reflect on his true feelings since he met kamiya, taking in what he had talked to ana. he was always quite slow and foolish on what other women could feel for him, assuming that everything he did for them was enough or everything to make them happy, without thinking that there would be the slightest chance for any of them to inevitably being the one to win his heart.
only tomoe did it without even realizing, as usual. however, she wasn't like the other girls. she wasn't a daughter of bushi who couldn't understand the importance of duty, what he wanted to achieve by joining the shinsengumi, following his master in difficult times and giving his life for what he believes, embodied in a single man. more than that... she knows he's an oni, a man without a mercy to kill. she understands, since her husband is the same as him, and he knows her heart has been in a dark place out of sadness and grief. he's unable to blame her for doing it out of love too, which if he had met her before without being in duplicity, he would never have understood her reasons in their fullness.
now souji can understand what kamiya tried to do so many times just to be close to him. it's the same emotion he's going through right now as they kiss. )
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only tomoe did it without even realizing, as usual. however, she wasn't like the other girls. she wasn't a daughter of bushi who couldn't understand the importance of duty, what he wanted to achieve by joining the shinsengumi, following his master in difficult times and giving his life for what he believes, embodied in a single man. more than that... she knows he's an oni, a man without a mercy to kill. she understands, since her husband is the same as him, and he knows her heart has been in a dark place out of sadness and grief. he's unable to blame her for doing it out of love too, which if he had met her before without being in duplicity, he would never have understood her reasons in their fullness.
now souji can understand what kamiya tried to do so many times just to be close to him. it's the same emotion he's going through right now as they kiss. )