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Himura Tomoe
I Am Only One
Memories fade into the silence
Haunting me tonight
With hope's last breath I take this moment in
It will be the last
Then morning breaks
And sunlight takes the pain away
Ever after never came
And I'm still waiting
For a life that never was
And all the dreams I lay to rest
Are ghosts that keep me
After all that I've become
I am only one
I am only one
I close my eyes and bleed this empty heart
Of all that longs to die
When faces lie and love will falter
I'm left with only time
And time will break
The dreams that take the pain away
Ever after never came
And I'm still waiting
For a love I'll never have
And all the dreams I lay to rest
Are ghosts that keep me
After all that I've become
I am only one
I am only one
I'm on my own here
And no one's left to be the hero of
This fairy tale gone wrong
As night will fall
My heart will die alone
Ever after never came
And I'm still waiting
For my heart to beat again
And all the dreams I've laid to rest
Are ghosts that keep me
After all that I've become
I am only one
I am only one
I am only one
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Date: 2021-01-03 11:23 pm (UTC)to him, no one's a better version of someone else. what he feels for sei and constance is different, only constance achieved the impossible by making him fall for her greatly and want to marry. however, what he could see was how the spitefulness consumed this woman's heart, and constance's heart isn't tarnished with mean thoughts. as much as souji cares for tomoe, such mean thoughts he discerned in her and how he must have loved a different tomoe are the reasons why anything else can't happen.
it's not wise, it's unhealthy, it's unfair. and yet, he can't help not caring, not worrying, not giving her some of that love that was there once like this. ]
It's alright, Tomoe-san...
[ and of course, he doesn't resist as she breaks the contact between them, his expression reflects the grief and shame of the proposition. with a step behind and eyes closed, he lowers his head in a bow and turns to leave, maybe expecting she will stop him from going, but he rather go to constance if asked to stay.
this was probably a mistake. ]